Portrait

Your charisma entices me, filling my lungs
Like the taste of sweet honey on my tongue
A scene so sad, knowing I that I have sinned
Cocked the hammer back, and pulled the trigger again
And as the bullet meets backbone
I'll find myself truly alone
With only myself to blame

I gaze upon the portrait of a life, that I've lived
So much I've wanted and craved, what have I to give?
A portrait of a life, missing a point of view
An incomplete canvas, the subject missing is you

Your aura enraptures me, warming my heart
Beating while knowing insecurity waits to tear it apart
A frame still cracked, the glass has shattered again
Smiles give way and submit to the failure within
And as the casing hits the ground
I know you won't be around
I have only myself to blame

I gaze upon the portrait of a life, that I've lived
So much I've wanted and craved, what have I to give?
A portrait of a life, missing a point of view
An incomplete canvas, the subject missing is you

All of my dreams, never saw fruition
I've written my fate, my own perdition
I shot myself in the back once too many
Never saw what I had right in front of me
It was you


"pretending I don't feel misplaced is so much simpler than change."

jude